9/13/2023 0 Comments Road opener sigil![]() ![]() For me, identifying and unravelling negative self-chatter has been useful. ![]() Perhaps you have a running narrative from childhood whispering in your ear that you are doomed to failure, that you are useless, talentless, or undeserving. The first part of opening a new road for yourself is identifying some inner binds that prevent you from moving forward. So there I was, still at the crossroads, but at least then I was roadworthy. Out of this arduous process came a course of treatment that eventually beat back the most disabling symptoms. This comes with a lot of other things referenced in acronyms that are complicated and rare. The beast’s name is Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome with hypermobility of the joints. I was like a caged animal, who, having seen life outside the cage, knew that things could be much better.ĭuring this time, I did a lot of magick to wheedle my way through the healthcare system, and managed to find exactly the right doctors to diagnose and start treating my debilitating ailment. Yet, I wanted to get back to work, but I could not. This practice had become rich and engrossing, and was only growing stronger. Somehow, I had managed to eke out a life between a loving family, tons of doctor’s visits, and my own daily practice of witchcraft. But at that point, those rather intimidating obstacles conspired to prevent my ideas from becoming reality. I’m confident enough to say that I am a driven person with and a pretty impressive idea machine. Both my body and the healthcare system had been failing me in a big way. I definitely could not do the PR work that constituted a large part of my income over the years. I couldn’t write, draw, or put together jewelry (which were staples of my existence). Then, after an unfortunately-timed car accident, I could no longer work at all. I was physically and mentally incapable of doing the work that people offered me too busy fighting daily battles with what was, at the time, a mystery disease. So when I approached the crossroads almost two years ago (and then again last year), I got only a fleeting benefit. Instead, they bounce inside our heads, creating a cacophony, a constant reminder that we can’t pull our thoughts together enough to make a melody. However, despite our best “mundane” efforts, we can’t move on or change paths we are stuck with a barrage of ideas that have nowhere to go, no channel forward.
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